I had a conversation with a friend over christmas. She spent years training to be an accountant, then practiced for a few years before giving the whole thing up and becoming a horse dentist. After that round of training, she decided to sell up her beloved horse and head to Germany and try her luck there with her lovely German boyfriend.

Turns out, starting your first horse dentistry business Germany proved fairly hard (for many reasons), and she is in mid plan-revision mode again.

When she wants to do something, she just goes with it, assuming that regardless of how things go, everything will work out fine.

When I compared myself with her, I came to the sad and alarming conclusion that Ive stopped doing that. It was quite a hard hitting fact and really hard to come to terms with. Ive sort of given up the joy of crazy risks for the comfort of knowing everything toddles along fine.

I never thought I would be that person, I think I know why I have become it, but I want to change.

So after weeks of soul searching and half thought out fears that Im somehow missing something… I think Im going to spend some serious time in the near future, thinking about what I really want to be doing…

I think Ive gone from feeling sort of lost and down to that old spark of excitement returning….