I seem to be running 3 months late this year – I’m just starting to realise what my new year’s resolutions are, and they all seem to be about self-improvement. I am thinking of going into an intensive phase of sorting some stuff out. This stuff falls into a couple of key categories:

NOT making the same mistakes again

I have recognised some trends in my life, around mucking up in the same way, time and time again. I *think* someone once told me that doing this repeatedly is in fact, a sign of insanity. I need to put a stop to that. Most of these mistakes follow the same path:
1. Natalie decides on something.
2. Natalie starts to have massive self doubt and second guesses everything
3. natalie freaks herself out so much, she can’t think straight on the issue any more.
4. Natalie does something very stupid and it blows up in her face.

So I’m going to work on point 2.

Set some goals

I have given myself a couple of years off, but there’s stuff I need to do. I need to pay off a mortgage so that I’m not stuck in a one bedroom apartment into my old age, I need to get more interests (i.e I need to learn that simply buying a Ukulele doesn’t make me a musician), I need to challenge my brain so by the end of the year I will feel like I am a slightly different and better person as a result of 2010.

I need to accept my past

I have struggled with this. I struggle to fit my mistakes into the person I think I am and find reason or lessons from them. Apparently this isn’t great news health wise. So this year, I am going to come to grips with choices I have made, things I have done and allow myself to absorb them as simply part of who I am. I need to stop letting my past hold me back and I need to stop hoping I can wipe some things from my history.

Breaking bad habits is TOUGH!